up there, part 2

"you think they care anything about you?" they want you and that's that are you saying up there for all you know it's cool up there where they smoke their cigars they don't care they keep you in the dark on purpose and caviar too so what what is caviar anyway? they don't want you to think "what does caviar even look like?" that shows what you know i'm just saying drinking champagne now champagne i can relate to who cares? nobody knows but they want you who knows why i'm just saying they are still up there think about it

up there, part 1

what they tell you is what they tell you drinking champagne they want you watching you and what's that watching you i'm just saying i'm just saying so what that's what watching you all night are you saying are you saying is what they tell you smoking cigars that's what to think smoking big cigars while they watch you and drinking champagne and that's the truth so help me they are up there drinking champagne and wine i'm just saying they want you

epiphany

the boy always be in his buffalo bill jacket he reached for nothing would ever change i have no friends i have no friends the girl in her red cap he suddenly realized "how can you remember all this?" in his buffalo bill jacket the hippie boy he suddenly realized nobody likes me laughing nothing would ever change laughing or at least smiling in his brown buffalo bill jacket in her red cap he suddenly realized nobody likes me alone the can of lima beans the boy alone

a romance of the wilderness

they tugged and tore at each other with countenances pale even to ghastliness they tugged and tore at each other the artifices of his depraved countrymen exceedingly decrepit and infirm you red-eyed devil robbing her fair visage of her single charm with the artifices of his depraved countrymen robbing her fair visage of her single charm "fair as is your outward form, you are foul - infinitely foul" united with a frank and modest spirit a vision of serious duties and little company i sat awhile in perfect silence with the stern joy that a warrior should feel you red-eyed devil as he stands over his fallen foe his countenance pale in his triumph pale as the stars fading behind him on the desolate battlefield i say it's outrageous her fair visage hovered before him i sat awhile in perfect silence with the stern joy that a warrior should feel marked out by her immaculate footsteps not a lively nor a sociable place they tugged and tore at each others hair i sat in perfect silence sources: the power of sympathy, wieland, the last of the mohicans, horse-shoe robinson, nick of the woods, the scarlet letter, the gold bug, miss ravenels conversion from secession to loyalty, mcteague, bartleby the scrivener, the turn of the screw, tom sawyer, the call of the wild

trudy martinelli, spacewoman, part 2

"this is what you always wanted, isn't it?" receding rings of saturn glowing fitfully in the depths of the flattened sun the spasmodic flow of the flat sun jumping jupiter! glowing fitfully let us turn our gaze now outward to the welcoming stars beyond the winking galaxies of smiling suns and sneering saturns and jumping jupiters and venal venuses flowing gently exploding endlessly with suave gravity and undoubted star power o my love with suave gravity nevermore no more beyond mars jupiter

trudy martinelli, spacewoman, part 1

the star shone on neptune in the depths "there is no turning back now" not to jupiter not to the sun we have a good flow now gravity? gravity is almost gone we head for the stars for new suns in the depths farewell venus with your false depths farewell old sun welcome the stars the exploding stars good old neptune now exploding behind us like jupiter before her and sad saturn we go beyond the old dreams of venus and further beyond see the glow feel the flow the last red dust of mars

nervous

looking out the window at everything makes me nervous been this way for a long time about everything walking down the street i'm nervous walking down the street the way i am have you always terrible dreams yes you mentioned that every night even me? walking down the street trying not to look around but i see you been this way looking out the window even me? it's just the way i am i've always been me does that make you nervous? do i see you what makes you nervous walking down the street

especially at night

i have dreams "you wouldn't believe the stuff that goes through my head" "try to relax" everything been this way looking out the window terrible dreams terrible dreams especially at night it's just the way i am i have these dreams especially at night it's just the way i am have you always yes, especially at night i have dreams even me? what makes you nervous looking out the window terrible dreams even me? do i make you i'm nervous i'm nervous because i have dreams i always have nobody knows me

jealousy, part 2

you sneaky bitch i'm trying to run a business here you know, that makes money get in line i know your sneaky ways keep it clean i see you there you think i don't know leave him alone i see what you are doing you're imagining things you're bad take a deep breath look out the window i know what you are like hey joe he's my man "forever and ever, until the end of time" what you're up to because he's mine you're dreaming oh but i know what's coming down the line because i'm all business leave him alone you think i don't know just stay away